I learn all you say me. I learned to not cry when there have people. I learn to be strong. And that’s true, I’m so strong now. But sometimes I want dream, I want people see my cry I want they see like I am. Not like I look like. I’m happy you feel good know. But I want you see me. I want you see how I am. I just want you here and you give me a hug like all the other mum. I think of you all the time. I hope so you too. I know you are in heaven, I know you happy, and I’m happy for that. Please help me to smile.